TITLE: one more week
DATE: 07/05/2022 06:12:01
My family got together for the 4th. This will be my last time seeing them all together before I go to college. I'm nauseated. My granny gave me a box of lotions and i almost started to cry.
It's been a day since I wrote that last paragraph. I'm watching Stranger Things for the first time. The vibes are good. It makes me want to create.
I'm feeling anxious like I'll collapse.. College is too close. I'm.. not feeling good. I get flashbacks to last year when I think about leaving.
I have to rest… Stranger things is interesting…. i wish I had something good to eat
TITLE: a week has passed
DATE: 07/12/2022 14:26:43
i'm actually pretty happy :-)
my family came together before i left and talked to me. they gave me some things, like a bonnet for my braids, pajamas, underwear, a backpack. The backpack is a color I dislike, but I'm going to try to cover it in pins over time anyways.
My family stopped for a vacation in the mountains and even though we didn't do anything today because of the length of the car ride, I had a lot of fun. We laughed and talked lots. My cousin and I played pool and air hockey (both of which i was very bad at) and connect 4 (which i was good at) while listening to 2000s emo music.
I left a lot of jewelry at home and i was sad, but I have some chains, my fishnet top, my fishnets, belts, my striped sleeves, so I can still look cool my first day of school. My mom says she'll mail me my jewelry.
I'm pretty sleepy now, so I will head to bed, but today was good. I'm looking forward to the future even if i am afraid.
DATE: 07/14/2022 06:24:35
I read My Heart is a Chainsaw. It was a good read, pretty long. I even read the acknowledgments!! I felt like a child as I read, sinking into the narrative and losing track of my surroundings. My cousin called my name because I didn't notice the car had stopped, and we were at our destination. I didn't want to stop reading as we walked through the streets looking at tourist sites. Writing is so powerful.
I added it to my Goodreads, which I made a few weeks ago. It's nice to know I'm reading books again. Not sure what I'll read next. I got this book from a google drive, but I found Library Genesis recently. I'm going to grab some Fear Street books and read them I think.
Onto other things, we went on an earthquake fake subway ride and it was funny. We went through this little tunnel and there was a gorilla and some alligators. My cousin and I had no idea what was going on.
A bee chased her as we walked back to the car because she was wearing yellow which made me laugh. Next to our truck was a Nightmare Before Christmas themed car.
I also went to a jewelry shop and bought too many things. I accidentally left all my jewelry at home, so I was trying to make up for it. I bought 4 black mood rings, a leather bracelet (which I thought was a choker, and some earrings. I spent $40 like a clown.
We're heading… somewhere now? Not sure where.
Today will be my last day hanging out with my family before college tomorrow, so I need to relish all of this fun time. I slept for a while heading up the though.. Whoops…
The mountain was really fun! I forgot to mention. We drove to the top rather than hiked because it was raining today. I've got pictures!
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