dollmaking. hangout out with new friend
Posted on: 2025-10-03 13:08:00


today i am going out with my friend again. i really should be going by the post office, and i know i can if i get ready fast but i'm writing this diary entry instead lol. i'm very anxious i'm so behind on work and midterms are here. but let's not talk about that.


there's girl i know who i think i may have pictures with on this blog, not sure. she's into lolita too though not a lifestyler, but you know same community. she's also black which makes me connect with her more. we talked about gunsmith bitch and started naming dark skinned anime characters off by hand,, and i love complaining about weeb shit. we also talked about black butler. she's read all of it and she knows the exact chapter i stopped at. she has a lot of similar complaints to me about the manga's current state, but talking to her made me want to pick it back up again. i still love a lot of Kuroshitsuji.



she's interested in my games and not bothered by some of them being eroge which makes me happy! 


we hungout on Wednesday. she bought me groceries and came to my place. she has lots of vitamins in her house so brought me some. it really surprised me. she offered. i felt bad but was also happy. i have not been full in a long time and not having to immediately spend everything on groceries finally allowed me to get to a place where i can save money again, albeit slowly. 


this afternoon, we will head downtown. we'll stop by an antique store though it's right by the gaming store. i have not gotten around to buying the OMNI SD CARD (sorry) for my DS, so i'm hoping to just grab a cheap game there, but really i shouldn't buy anything. i have a trip with my girlfriend to Dollywood soon, and we're both super poor right now LOL. i want to go without spending all of my money. luckily, i actually only spend money on necessities when i'm up in the area we're headed. not much i want to buy. so i end up focusing on food and the actual theme park tickets. it still is expnsive though. A DOLLYWOOD TICKET IS $100 AND THE GUY WHO GOT ME DISCOUNTS IS HEADED OFF TO THE MILITARY. then we'll probably eat in the park and consume beverages.


my wallet afterwards..


i made some discounted yuri commissions in hopes of not spending all my money on the trip. in fact, i refuse to spend all my money on that thing. i cannot be poor again. we are going to a cheap inn and i hope to prioritize eating at cheap diners.. but erm, there's a seafood place there, so we'll see if i'm stupid (i cannot be trusted when giving option of seafood but my girlfriend is also saving and picky so it saves me.)


anyways, these are positive things. i also am trying to get dressed more often. a lot of time i refuse to leave home and not living on campus or in a beautiful place (#studentapartment) makes me want to be in pajamas all day.



Oh erm, lastly, I have been hosting a dollmaker jam. It started Oct 1st. I've been trying to figure out what I'll do. I already have my base dollmaker. People have been talking about OC dress up things, and at first I did not get it but to be honest it really appeals to me now. One for Angel and/or Charlotte Cakes in particular. I thought of one for Kie, but using Angel just feels right because she's in so many of my games.


In truth, I want to make multiple, but I know that girly games jam happens often and I may just end up hosting another dollmaker jam (or someone else can take the reigns I don't give a fuck). I really like them, and people seem excited about it. It's also low maintenance. I am trying to get into low maintenance collaborations because zine has burned me out and I still am tired from judging menhera jam last year if I'm being honest.


In fact, the tiredness sort of grows by the day, but I'm hoping once the zine is over which will hopefully be by end of this year or early January, I can be free. it's just kind of weird. figuring that out. because winter break is soon and i usually go home. i'm considering trying to work as an RA again to afford Spring Housing but we'll have to see.


the housing place i live at is also hiring but i do not. know if i will apply yet. but i am thinking about it. it's just they are kind of incompetent.