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Very easy answer. Seafood boil ! But the kind in a big bag so it's super messy and seasoned!!!

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I guess I have a crush on Megan Thee Stallion but who wouldn't.. I don't feel strongly about many celebrities but I almost saw her at a festival before I listened to her just because i found her pretty.. Now I like her music and Her.. I didn't see her cause of weather haha.

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I love coffee but avoid drinking it because I cannot consume caffeine without experiencing a migraine but caffeine was part of the experience sniffles..So tea!

Black tea (no caffeine) and adjacent english teas are my go to, but when I am feeling luxurious, I'll combine milk, red roobois, and cinnamon! I really like every tea.. It is just hard to buy nice ones and because of my Habits, I go through them kind of quickly at times.

Generally I am not very into fruity teas though that is not a hard fast rule!

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Not really...

I am just tired a bit tired of jirai, but even then I like the edgier jirai that doesn't consist of the dusty pink setups. It sort of confuses me that so much of jirai wears kind of wear the same thing, and it made some brands release the same pieces over and over for a long time.. And it's all over Harajuku...

I am happy lolita brands who tried dipping their toes into it immediately gave up but even then, it is not a hatred of it... I think I just dislike the most popular variations of it.  Acro Tokyo makes interesting things I'd probably wear if I were looking for new clothes.. But I am not.

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I've thought about it. Friends have read it and I believe I could probably borrow it from someone If I really tried... It is an interesting piece of lolita history that is unfortunately resold for $100+ over and over. The creator has spoken about reprinting it from what I've heard but it has been quite some time and she still hasn't so. The structure of it inspires me quite a bit, but I just admittedly get a bit tired of lolita ponderings/essays which is why I haven't been in a rush to read it...

I like that there is a zine people adore full of large chunk of text. Do you think lolitas would enjoy a zine with chunks of a fiction in a similar way that is just in novel formats? Sometimes essay wise it feels like everything that could be said about the culture has been said, but there is still so little fiction about our subculture. 

Speaking of the the comics. They are rather lengthy for a zine, so they are also of interest to me.

I do have it on my computer... The entire thing.. But it's just all PNGs.. I should convert it to a PDF.. 

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I like Shiori for many reasons. I enjoy seeing teenage girls with BPD in fiction, and I like that the show shows her own behavior doesn't make her happy, but she views it as the ideal way to act in those situations. She is genuinely so miserable..  There are people who call her the most evil character in the show (even compared to Akio??), but she is genuinely just a girl with BPD and deep internalized homophobia living in Ohtori.

Like I think it's hard to understand that Shiori likely can't even comprehend being a lesbian in this world of princesses and princes. It causes her extreme agony, so she keeps taking and taking from the one she loves, but it is never Enough. She truly has a black hole of a heart.

Perhaps you can even say her lesbianism makes her a witch... She can never have a prince so she cannot behave like a "normal" girl, pushing her into the role of a villain in every fantasy story.

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I think a lot of the bizarre Nanami episodes are focused on the strangeness of teenage girlhood and her weird sense of autonomy due to being groomed while currently being in Ohtori... They tend to more reflect more on Nanami herself being a girl in that world ahah. She's got so much going on but still has to deal with being a girl with all that other stuff going on..

A lot of those episodes are products of the actions of Anthy Himemiya a lot of the time haha.

The episodes are joked about a lot lol. And for good reason- they are funny and bizarre... I feel like so many aspects of girlhood are bizarre and alien if you aren't actively experiencing them. One of my favorite episodes in the entire show is the Egg episode ahah.

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i'm so surprised to see ena as a girl! like a true human girl! i actually had assumed that ENA's story would no longer be explored due the events of Temptation Stairway, but it looks like it is continuing!!!!! really it's sort of a logical conclusion for her to reach this form after Temptation Stairway but.. i hadn't even considerdd it!!!

i do find her very cute. i like how her unevenness is still expressed in her socks and the blue and yellows swirls escaping her face in the trailer. i really enjoy the shape of her eyes  and her lips are very cute.. i am not super used to joel's art style for 'normal' humans so it's interesting to see.

Ena is technically full of characters who speak a variety of languages and random cultures are depicted, yet I was still (pleasantly) surprised to see that she is brown ^^  her colors are also spectacular in general to me.. i find her really interesting.. removal of suspenders, longer skirt, the socks.. everything.. and i love how long she is... i want to see her animated more so badly. 

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An exhaustive list would be difficult to compile though trust me, I actually did try and ended up closing all my windows LOL. 

Normal Lindsay is an Australian artist who drew erotica (frequently featuring pagan elements) and made children's books. His history is interesting especially in the context of how erotica is viewed now. He disturbed many Australian Christians haha. I truly admire his outlook on art. 

Range Murata has very beautfiul designs. I own.. almost all of his trading figures from and I enjoy his artwork. I don't like anything he makes now lol, but I have Last Exile on DVD just because he's the lead character designer. I'd love to own his old artbooks. His diesel punk designs very much inspire me.. I wish he'd make interesting things again but he has schoolgirl brainworms now (in a similar vein I love Otsushi Okhubo but he also has a tendency to fall to the schoolgirl brainrot)

Kira Imai is another artist who sparks joy. I enjoy her older artworks more generally but I like everything she makes. Collecting it is enjoyable. I know she's in the Angelic Pretty mines but I wish she'd draw for other brands too. I want her to go back to drawing things other than modern sweet even if I do enjoy it.

Lastly I will put Junji Ito which is a basic answer but I will say something unique. I enjoy his oil paintings. His watercolors are nice too. The online scans I don't think do any of his paintings justice and well, a lot of it actually isn't archived online despite being in art books. This is because people are interested his manga which I do also enjoy. Uzumaki is one of my favorite works ever (along with Tomie), but I think one reason he is reknown is because of the beauty of his linework.. His paitnings can often be loose which I enjoy but his layered paintings make me insane.

I went to his exhibit so do believe my devotion is good and true.

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I would live in Shimeji Simulation haha.

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red bean buns! i actually find most desserts to be too sweet to be enjoyable for casually eating which means most are just find for a bite or two or i eat them to be polite.. <-- which is kind of funny cause i just made a heart shaped brownie HAHA.. my Valentine's date is tomorrow and my friend let me borrow a heart shaped tin...

it's actually a thing where i go to bakeries and make baked goods but people don't.. know.. why Because i don't like them very much!! but i find them cute and i love the smell!! i spent my bday at a bakery and i can enjoy a small dessert!!!

(when i go to the bakery that just opened in my home city, i like to get milk bread!! they don't have red bean buns though just red bean mochi!!!)

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Far too much to give a satisfactory answer. I have a page on my site that generates my top albums for the last three months using lastfm.

Lately I listen to Within the Depths of a Darkened Forest by Autumn's Grey Solace a lot though.. And like, for several years now I've been listening to Gregory and the Hawk for dozens of hours every year. I also consistently love Death Grips and Machine Girl. I don't listen as much as I used to because of my migraines but both bands have ambient tracks I still return to all the time.. I love Fashion Week.

To be honest, I get embarrassed about my music tastes LOL.... but my lastfm doesn't lie.

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SMILES. I feel like I don't read or watch enough to confidently answer this, but know it's something I'm working on! 

BOOKS

• Convenience Store Woman - This book makes me insane. The most popular critique I see of it is regarding its prose but I just feel like it really suits the story and the protagonist. It also just makes it an easy read. I think I got through it in a few hours. I enjoy.. prose. It's nice.. I read a lot of things with simple prose because I can get through it in an afternoon.
• My Heart is a Chainsaw - it's hard for me to like horror but i really love this and I hope to read its sequel and another work by the author called No Good Indians. it captures the weird girl in small southern town well. beautiful southern gothic
• Their Eyes Were Watching God - This is a book I've read a few times from the Harlem Renaissance. It is considered a classic of that era and Hurston's best work... 7 It takes place right after slavery and is about a mixed woman, the way she is viewed as a 'sexual being,' her acceptance of this, and her goal to find her own happiness. It's so good and so agonizing IT'S SOO GOOOD it's my favorite book and thinking about is literally making me cry LOL...
  • Zora Neale Hurston died in obscurity in an unmarked grave. Her grave was found and I'd truly like to visit and leave her flowers.  So many creators die in obscurity- their work never found. In a way, Their Eyes Were Watching God is about a life full of love that will never be known by others. I hope somewhere she's out there and knows. I love you I love you I love you.
• Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine - This protagonist kind of.. changed my perspective on writing things in a way that is hard to explain. I really like Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine. It's described as dark humor but to me it's a bit horrific but it also does make me laugh so I guess it fills out both. I want people are schizo-spec or have the 'weird girl autism' that actually scares people to read this book
• Fear Street - Okay so,  these aren't favorite books plot wise but you know, I like gore and slocky stuff, and Fear Street books are nice to just get through. It's the same appeal of a Lifetime movie or old slashers LOL. For context, this is just like Goosebumps for teenagers. It's all focused on one street. I have been reading them since I was 12. There are over 100 of them and I tend to forget the Twist, so I like to go back to them randomly. I own a bunch of them because I collected them when I was a kid.

I don't have any favorite authors yet but I want to read more by Zora Neale Hurston and Stephen Graham Jones (the author of My Heart is a Chainsaw). My current job allows books in the breakroom, so I think I will try to collect some physicals again.

MOVIES

• Ikiru (1952) - A classic movie about the government bureacracy. Has one of the most unique actors I've ever seen. I watched it with Zed and Kail and we talked for so long about it afterwards. I've drawn that man and I hate the drawing but he is so striking. And that movie makes me cry so hard. It's considered one of the best movies of all time and honestly for good reason.
• Kamikaze Girls (2004) - Lolita movie that is significant to the subculture and the original text is yuri. It is special to me. Lolita is so hard to define beause it is just clothes but the way I feel about lolita is so accurately described and the protagonist.. so many lolitas who are devoted to the culture relate to her in a variety of ways. It's just clothes, but if you really love it, it goes beyond that. Also, I've always been interested in girl gangs... The author of Kamikaze Girls is a bit strange but his devotion to the subculture cannot be overstated.
• Helter Skelter (2012) - Fashion movie with one of the most beautiful actors I've ever seen. It reminds me of Tomie. This movie is very stressful. I watched it with friends not knowing it was That way, but I am happy we did because we were all horrified together.
• Paprika - Dream terrorism. By the director of Perfect Blue and to me it is far superior but unfortunately it's just the 'crazy anime movie' in the West. It's very inspiring to me.. So sooo beautiful, so many amazing concepts, and THE SOUNDTRACK AND AAAH. 
• Whisper of the Heart - One of my favorite movies and my favorite Ghibli movie. I think about the Director's early passing and it hurts really bad. I also enjoy the spin off- The Cat Returns. Whisper of the Heart is a movie that is special.. I show it to many of my loved ones on slow days.
• Repo! The Genetic Opera - Drug market.... Love market. FETISH GOTH MOVIE. IF IT'D BEEN SUCCESSFUL THE WORLD WOULD BE CHANGED.. It's could be considered a bit camp but also genuinely good to me in many ways.. I unfortunately LOVE musicals but hate most of them. REPO is perfect.

My favorite directors are Jordan Peele and Ari Aster and my favorite movies by them are Us and Midsommar. I like everything the two make so I felt it'd be weird to not mention them. They are such unique movies. I can't just sit down and watch them but I think of them all the time.

None of these are yuri. I'm so sorry.

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I decided to read Narcissu 1 today since it's free on Steam and I knew I could read it in a sitting and wanted to consume Something before bed ^^ 

I enjoyed it though it took me a moment. I enjoy stories about illness and finding happiness despite being ill.. I talked about it with Spiral Egg somewhere I think but I'm surrounded by illness... Illness goes unseen. It's something you feel as though you can't discuss with people because you know.. It's so heavy ^^

It's one reason I love those works.. It reminds me people know the ill exist, and lately in life I've gotten better at talking about the chronic illness and death that is following me.. If people talk about it or make more works about it.. it makes ill people feel more human, and I hope it makes their loved ones treat them in a more human way.

I mean.. TERMINAL ILLNESS SUCKS. But removing the agency of the ill and their loved ones is so common.. And then.. you just become.. someone who is ill.. or the friend with a loved one who has cancer or something.. I think of my grandad. I think so many people who knew him at the end of his life just thought of him as someone who had dementia, but you know ^^ 

The tension between the protagonist and deuteragonist is pleasant to me.. And I enjoyed the ending and their progression. There's this trope I love.. when I think about it, I call it the end of the world. It often involves chronically ill people or people running from the law or some other things.. It is not the actual end of the world.. but it is the end of your world. Much can happen. A lot of these stories raise the stakes quickly, but I liked... the melancholia of this story and it's slowness...

HAHA. Anyways that is to say- I really liked it!!! It's also menhera to me and I'm always looking for media like that. Thank you for mentioning it here and for being so kind about my own work.. I hope to read 2!!! Soon!! 

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I wish I recalled ^^; But it's just.. one of a million JP fetish eroge that romanticizes abuse without much substance. Boring and uncomfortable with no reward. I'd feel bad naming it though I'm sure I could find it easily.. It is just.. another work that writes mentally ill women/lesbians in a way that makes me roll my eyes haha.

I'm really happy you liked Spiral Egg Challenge! i'm reading a VN rn and it also reminds me of Spiral Egg.. i love.. works with focuses on sickness. As I play this VN (Narcissus), the music reminds me of Dog Island. it's a game i played as a child with a large focus on sickness too..

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I like every HC charatcer honestly. I enjoy Vincent quite a bit. He reminds of my middle school self and as I get older, I find people who communicate in a similar way to him... The things I dislike about Vincent as a person are the reasons I like him... In that I don't think I'd like him very much if I encountered him even outside of the cult things.

Charles is my true favorite Hello Charlotte character. I also love Anri. She is nothing like me LOL, but I've known people like her and have been in similar situations to her and Charles. They are so high school. Can you tell I enjoy Heaven's Gate? I think that's when they are most high school, but even outside of HG, I like all of them.. I enjoy that the HC characters feel like.. Vessels the same way I feel about characters as a whole. It means the way I feel about them ends up a bit.. abstract because of how they exist in the HC universe.

I don't remember Bennet super well. I don't recall much extended time being spent with him. He's in Etherane's new work (in progress) right, so I think I may stronger feelings there possibly? I love Felix though. I enjoy him... I enjoyed him more as my sisters and cousins aged with me. His entire character reminds me of that awkward time you have when your family members reach an age where they may choose to distance themselves from you but there's still love there.

The way he acts around Charlotte reminds me of the distance you end up getting with loved ones when they discover something about you like queerness or mental illness.. he's good. I really like the tenants of the House because they are locked to The House in a way other characters in world Are Not.., My favorite tenant is Aiden. He is very special to me even though no one talks about him ever.

With shipping, I view it as a fandom activity. It is what they do, and well, fandom activities tend to keep works alive for years, so I don't hate them.. I'm sure many people who do that are the reason artists can thrive.. It is just somewhat seperate from me. Shipping is not something I do very often because my romantic feelings and detection skills tend to be like.... In the abyss. I can't even detect actual romance in works at times. I also don't know anything about the shipping in HC.... My interactions with other HC fans have primarily been with people who kin the characters.

Etherane's other works I enjoy. I really enjoy playing everything Etherane makes. People sometimes say playing HC is not fun at all but it's a DELIGHT FOR ME 99% OF THE TIME. 

I've played all of them, but did not finish Delirium (though I could if I really wanted to. i say i love HC games but I don't like running around mazes with things I can't see in the dark and that's at the end of that game). I didn't get the true ending of twc which means I have no strong feelings because I don't what was happening LOL, but I did enjoy TWC I just.. never went back for the true ending because I didn't really know it existed since I played it Right After It Released and didn't know other etherane fans.. But I really did like the art and would like to go back to it..

I love Mr. Rainer's Secret Solve It Service- I remember playing it and thinking it was one of Etherane's best. That work is crazy to me in scale, and it's a nice balance of Etherane's strange game design and writing which I think TWC lacked...

I must admit unfortunately.. have amnesia HAHA. I've played HC since I played MRSIS so I remember it very well but MRSIS is actually.. harder to recall. I had an open save when I was trying to replay MRSIS on my Steam Deck but unfortunately my Steam Deck needs to be repaired...But it's an HTML5 file.. I could play it on my ipad... Thank u for sending this ask I now have something to keep me busy on the Bus.

Despite my amnesia, I remember feeligns I had at the time and talking a lot about MRSIS.. I replayed HC because it was my foggiest memory and it's talked about so much and I wanted to be able to talk about it with other people who liked it... it was also the most approachable since the endings are.. easy to obtain *looks at MRSIS*

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I want to say it's hard to answer, but it is not. My favorite Vocaloid songs are mostly contained within Happiness Series, and this has been the case for probably over a decade now.

It tends to rotate between everything in that series (excluding Not a Dream, Not a Lie, a Happy Scene Before My Eyes and You're Seriously Mad? I'm Not Mistaken Here but I do like them.. just not in my favorite rotation).

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I haven't, but the reason is because whenever I look up FNS, there are guides for how to consume it...  I think I have an old FNS Ultimate Edition on my drive, but I think it's older fan translation that released before the official translation.. and the fan translation I was recommended not to read.. I know there's an official release now... But... The ultimate edition has some things not in the official release.... sighs..

With things I dislike in VNs, I just find a lot of toxicity boring... Outright disdain of toxicity is boring, outright fetishism is boring, and outright romanticism is often boring too... I will read it in manga but in VNs it can really annoy me.. They are so much longer. There was a VN really popular in my spheres I hated.. People assumed it was because it made me uncomfortable which it did, but I also found it boring. The things that make me uncomfortable I don't read I usually find boring... There is a way women can be written that bores me but it is hard to explain, but it's common in Japanese works... eroge... Sighs...

It's hard for me to talk about tropes I dislike since many of my peers like tropes I like, and I will read their works and enjoy them despite them containing things I am not fond of... But the things I dislike Kunihiko Ikuhara also dislikes. I love Revolutionary Girl Utena (anime).

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For a second I was confused then I realized you were talking about Dorei-San!! Dorei-San is not my OC. Dorei is a Nijiura Maid! Umm, so is the girl with her in that image- Yakui-san. They are just.. old Japanese imageboard characters. Dorei-san's origins are not holy since she really is just a racism/dark skinned joke, but I am fond of her. Yakui-san is not holy due to being drug joke but she has retained popularity. They have anotherfrined who is a sexually provocative sentient corpse who I think is still drawn but not on the same level as Yakui.

They are like mascots so you can really just assign personalities to them. Dorei-San is typically depicted as being hardworking and friends with other unacceptable/offensive maids (ie the corpse up top is used for hot dead woman jokes). She's also friends with Yakui who I like a bit more since she has a personality that I can work with.

I have a Patreon ramble about her but I will compress.. People do not draw her because of the dark skinned slave joke.. but... I just get sad. I mean I know it's a shitty joke but shrugs, I mean.. I don't get why erasing her existence or not acknowleding it is the way to go.. So I like to repurpose her.. 

A lot of old art of her is from anonymous users on imageboards.. But a lot of the other maids are still drawn or used in things like maidcore.. So it's my personal mission to revive Dorei-San... I am bad at this mission though. I collect art of her where I can.. Find her on boorus, pixiv, old imageboard image reuploads, etc. I still need to draw her more myself though.. Maybe I should make a shrine to spread my gospel..

In way I feel like I am reclaiming her~ Sure she was a dark skinned slave joke but.. Many ancestors were.. enslaved maids... So it feels a bit good to draw her and flip her over in my head.. She's drawn so infrequently and often differently that I can really just draw her however I want.. I'm still figuring out the ideal way.. Here is an old image board drawing I like but know she has other depictions too. She varies a lot.

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I haven't read this one so into my list!!! I'm going to include manga and manwha ^^

My favorite yuri in high school was Sweet Blue Flowers which I want to reread because I think it'll be fascinating with all I know about yuri historically now,  but as an adult, my favorite yuri manga is Shimeji Simulation probably.

My favorite 18+ one is Sadistic Beauty: Epilogue (Sadistic  Beauty: Oejeon A). I didn't read the main story lol. I like that manga for a wide variety of reasons.. 

It takes a lot for me to really like things. I read a lot just for fun that doesn't end up being a favorite but I still think about.. I enjoyed Anata ni Ai wo Anata ni Hana wo a lot which is a short NSFW doujin I found soulful. I like it's set up of scenes and the delicacy of the intimacy and when they choose to engage or not engage in it. The art is also cute.. Elves.

Jjaksarangeul Kkeunnaeneun Bangbeop (How to End  an Unrequited Love) is one I also enjoyed which is about a girl who has failed in love over and over lol.. The side stories are fun if I remember correctly. I remember it pissing me off then I went "oh.." I should reread it.

Other things could be considered 'technically yuri' but are not classed as that in genre.. like I love Inside Mari.. Yokohoma Kaidahsi Kikou is also one of my favorite manga which is not yuri but probably is on a yuri list somewhere (who would've fucking guessed i love that manga LOL). 

I have a media page but haven't set up my filters yet, so it's messy right now and full of my cringe.. It may be of interest.. But well, I haven't been tracking everything i read there because I treat manga like I'm stuffing my face full of popcorn at times. GUH. It makes me mad. 

Too many things I didn't track because it was short... Enraging. Why that dev would shut everything down with no way to export your stuff in a CSV or anything is beyond me but closes my eyes... Whatever. It is my fault for not putting everything on MyAniList..

 

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WRROW that's crazy.. 2022 that's the year after I graduated high school HAHA. It's crazy to me that anyone from back then still is aware of me, especially since I left Neocities ^^; I assumed no one from there was keeping up with me outside of friends. Thank you for thinking I'm creative and fun!!!

I have a few game and other media recommendations in my likes but it's never harmful to recommend more ^^ I will just do lots of random ones that come to mind but try not to repeat myself!

RECOMMENDATIONS ABYSS (SOME R 18+)

• Play of Wire - This is a game by Slitherbop who as the coolest and most awesome art on Earth. I think about it a lot. It's a game I really adore though I do like everything by Slitherbop so I recommend checking out all of it honestly. Slitherbop makes many things I Want to make. Just really impressive work. MY TOP RECOMMENDATION OF THIS POST!
• Paradoxical Heat - I recently realized I don't talk about Paradoxical Heat enough. Paradoxical Heat is what one first place in the jam Meat Girl was in (Meat Girl won second!) Annd honestly, Paradoxical Heat is so great. The developer also made Tresspasser for the RoRo jam which I also recommend. I think I like it more than Paradoxical Heat maybe? Perhaps I am biased because Tresspasser more recently!
• DYSFUTUR3.5 - This is another RoRo entry that made me insane. I actually struggled to get into it at first HAHA but now I think about it more than probably any other entry in the jam. I am still playing and reading entries though!!!
• Weird and Unfortunate Things Are Happening - I never finished this game because I lost my save on my old hard drive and the flashing gives me headaches BUT IW AS RIGHT AT THE END. I think about it all the time. It does rely on random encounters which can be agonizing but if you are RPG Maker Pilled, you can enjoy! I want to finish it because it's just so interesting to me!
• (18+) Lovely Lonely Apparition - By same dev of Mechanical Relations. So good that thinking about it makes me throw up. I think about it often.. All the characters.. Blue...
• (18+) Terminal Shell - Digital pets! Another RoRo entry. The art style is very pleasant and it's about a subject frequently on my mind (digital pets and people's continous attempts to recreate and break them)
• (18+) Mechanical Relations - I recommend this because I really enjoy short episodic things and if you are one of the 5 people in the world who enjoy Squid Girl World, you may also enjoy the format of Mech Relations!! They aren't super similar in content but.. I love bite sized episodes.. Right now there's 2. Get in now!!!!

There's lots of things I wanna play and have forgotten to mention here too!!!!! Honestly looking through jam pages is awesome. We just hosted Robotic Romance(RoRo)!! It's not all games because I'm trying to get into more mixed media jams but honestly i'd say give all of it a try!!! Some of my favorite non game entries I've read so far are Sparkfish and Ahodori!

THANKS FOR ASKING!!!! 

 

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i'd like to! i like dolls as inanimate objects a lot. in, Ib i enjoy them and mad father too even though mad father wasn't particular unique with its depiction... i also liked Bokura no Ai wa Kimochi Warui a lot when i was reading it.. though that was ages ago ahaha! the first few chapters inspired me at the time.

in truth, i have strange feelings about dolls. it is hard for me to think about toys because i think of souls being attached to objects, and many toys ultimately get disposed of or broken. the toys i had in childhood that i no longer have i still think about it can distress me...

there's this song called breaking things into pieces and it is how i feel (in an abstract way). i haven't written about them yet because that feeling was so horrific to me..

but i actually got over that fear this year even if those feelings are still strong for me and i love toys again! when i love things, i begin to write about them. and i love toys. dolls are my favorite!

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I actually don't know if this has been asked in relation to me Starting to dev ahaha! RPG Maker has been a special interest since the early RPG horror blew up, but I recognize a lot of the classic titles would be a boring answer, so I'll go into some detail for later in life.

At age 16(?), I played Hello Charlotte which as probably a huge catalyst for me going back to game development. It's technically in that category of RPG Maker horror about a strange girl but it's story is told in a unique way and goes more towards VNRPG (visual novel rpg) than a lot of the classics did. That format is like drugs to me. 

I also played the 8:11 demo, and that game really motivated me.. I at some point befriended the developer and seeing his work style did something to my brain.. He developed maps in a similar way to me but he works on a larger scale and it's hard for me to wrap my head around. I played a lot of indie games on itchio to get my brain into gear really though 8:11 is the most memorable after all this time. It day 2 of Omma HAHA. I really like churches in games now though. I see they are in many RPGs.

Um regarding visual novels, a lot of the VNs that inspired me are no longer publicly available on the internet, but one in particular is Liar Liar by tokimekiwaku. It's structure and styled inspired the first VN I made in high school. Obviously I don't make stuff like that right now but I'm still fond of choose your path horror stuff. 

It took me a while to really figure out my voice as I developed VNs cause I had taken a break from writing longform fiction because of depression and my art focus in HS, but I certainly took inspo from HeartLovePowerTemple and many other VNs released for other jams I partook in early on (ie I love Spiral Egg Challenge and it's use of art and real life images of cooking and the topics really resonate with me). I like the designs and names in Spiral Egg Challenge a lot (I think about Fabric Johnson all the time). It winning VNCup menat a lot to me for reasons that are hard to articulate. For something to resonate with me so much in the way that it did and also win.. It gave me a confidence to continue to be true to myself... It means more to me than I can probably ever properly articulate..

Really, with VNCup and other jams like that, a lot of VNs released in the events I enjoy are focused on messy relationships between girls which I like.. I enjoy things that blur the line between general toxicity and abuse and also sometimes people are just mentally ill but not outright harmful towards their friends but have the potential to be if in another situation. So yummy.

Also, denpa as a whole. I've always sort of liked it before I knew that term, but I learned about it in my teens. I still think I take inspiration from Song of Saya (VNDB) even after all this time (despite my habit of making fun of Urobochi at times). It certainly will inspire me forever whether or not I choose to talk about it. It was the first denpa VN I read and it did something to me. The sound direction, visuals, and (some) of the character designs really do a lot to me... It's a VN I'd never want to make myself but echoes of it resound in my tastes forever.

But I do prefer things like Soundless (VNDB) which I've talked about over and over so I will spare details... It is admittedly hard to define denpa as a genre and not going to lie, I actually don't care that much about the true definition because the legacy of those works are seen throughout the other works I love very much BUT visual novels (and other mediums) that fit in that category are quite special to me.. Even if I haven't written a released an denpa work myself yet haha! 

(While I'm here.. I should gather Fabric's sprites.. Top tier design truly)..

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I wanted to clean up my askbox before answering this so it sat for a bit. I didn't mean to ignore you! I will probably be on SNS in some shape or form for a while but I could see myself leaving when I'm older, but right now I enjoy SNS! It's just sometimes I find myself not really caring about posting. 

I know people dislike having lots of social media and how everything is so spread out now, but to be honest, I think it's nice. I like having platforms where I just interact with random artists and devs casually too. Return to nobody status online. I love it. Share to void. It's nice when you socialize in a disconcerting way. Brief interactions. May interact a few more times. Maybe never again.

Discord is a site that exists that I also technically have, but I hate Discord. I don't like that it's big messaging platform while also acting as forum. So mainly focus on DMs nowadays, but to be honest, I hope to delete my Discord someday! Be free! But well, I've deleted my Discord many times before, but I always Come Back.

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You sent me this while I was editing the askbox cx Luckily I saw it!!!

I like dragons. I am indifferent to elves. I don't consume much high fantasy, so I have very little exposure to them. In the past, I use to draw these.. soft chunky dragons. I like lizards and tend to get these fasciniation with Winged things, so it was object of fascination for a bit.. Also, Dragon Ball has these random large lizards lol, so it influenced me a bit.

Have no pictures of those drawings.. Here is Icarus.

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Hi nonnie!!!! I'm really honored you're asking a question like this!!! I made a short list of games I enjoy and love that feel adjacent to me. I tried to divide them up a bit depending on the category / content!

RPG Maker and Adjacent

• Halope: Halope and Ommatophilia are sisters to me! They developed with a similar timeline and have some similarities all over both games. Halope is also just very good. Dev and I are friends also!!!
• 18782: This is a game about a boy in Japan who's waiting to see his favorite Visual Kei idol. It has a lot of things in it, and that dripping SOL melancholia.. Waiting day to ay.. Nothing to do... Subculture things. Computer.
• Prey At the Altar: A very short RPG Maker game about being chosen as the sacrifice for God! (willingly!)
• re:curse: Sentient computer virus pierrot. Lesbianism. Veery Good. I'd kill for More.

Interactive Fiction and Visual Novels

• HEARTLOVEPOWERTEMPLE - Yuri rabbit girls. Faith. I like yogurt200's sensibilities a lot. HLPT always pleases me to read and see art of. I love you Iroja
• Mr. Rainer's Solve-It Service: I love MRSIS. Etherane, the developer, is very influential for me. Her early games, Hello Charlotte, is a big reason I write the way I do honestly.

18+ Stuffs

• Yes, and So Our Hollow Hearts Called for Love - This is one of the menhera jam winners. I adored it every second and still think of it after all this time. Very solid and very good. The creator of this I feel has very similar interests to me. I wish more knew of Hollow Hearts
• They Once Had Names - The MEAT! I like everything by Basic Bean, but I recommend They Once Had Names specifically because it explores something I bring upin a lot of my works but is about that the entire time. Oh you wonderfuil meat orifice. 

A lot of these have lesbians too (or are just yuri). I didn't specify which ones are yuri cause like I love the word yuri and everything but also I know some of the above I consider yuri or have lesbian protagonists but aren't really yuri.

Anyways, I hope you enjoy some or all!

A: modern mary janes usually are missing durability or comfort. orthopedics have to be durable and comfortable because of the crowd they're made for while they're also much cheaper than a durable gothic brand shoe. i have other shoes that aren't orthopedics also... i just.. never have had to replace them because i try to get things that will never break.. so i never buy anything else haha. this is really important to me nowadays cause i used to buy my shoes from overseas early on, but it's just too expensive to ship stuff nowadays.

also, i also just have a lot of people in my life who are nurses or have disabilities which helps me find shoe brands (nurses often wear orthopedics because they are on their feet all day). i don't have a disability that requires orthopedics myself or anything if that is what you're wondering. an uncomfortable shoe is something i just cannot stand, especially since i walk more than the average person. alegrias are my shoe of choice but there's lot of cute orthopedic mary janes out there. you can even find them in normie malls. i just like boxy shoes haha.

A: sorry i wrote an anwer to this when i saw it arrive only to forget to actually paste it here haha!

i only have two though i've consumed more. some is on my media page and others i've never talked about publicly but are really big names in ED media so you can find them easily (ie To The Bone.. which is just ok to me)

Cousin is my favorite manga depicting a disordered relationship with food and body dysmorphic tendencies. It's the most realistic portrayal I've seen, and I think it avoids leaning into the glorification of it/overexaggeration a lot of media does. Also, it has other stuff going on.


I will always plug She Loves to Cook, and She Loves to Eat of course too. It just depicts food and the different relationships people have with it well. Interestingly enough I thought one character in here was silly only to end up having the same relationship with food with her years after first reading LOL. Also Totoko Kasuga is hot. i hope this gets an anime someday though i know it has a live action. i like how it writes woman so much.

A: hi kail!! i wov u.. and i love frozen strawberries, honey crisp apples, and i love combining several fruits into smoothies. strawberries i guess are my favorite.. but plenty others would have the potential to be if citrus didn't sting my mouth!

I’ve never actually thought about artificial flavoring in context of a variety of foods.. thinking abt it has made mee realize it’s probably why i don’t like desserts very much.

i like really concentrated artificial flavors. like candy. fruity sour candy is great, but tbh i don’t use the word fruity in context of the candy.. doesn’t taste like fruit, just the idea of fruit candy. it is not really am emulation to me.. just a different flavor with the same name as a fruit.

those flavors in other things.. don’t appeal to me though. i take the frosting off of baked goods and go years not drinking soda. i just really love candy. and fruit. i think. tangy.. sweet.. sour things. _{i actually hate artificial grape flavors though and lots of cherry things too..}

A: i haven’t been reading and watching a lot of things due to exhaustion. usually the things i finish i really like or they make me laugh.

really the only thing rhat comes to mind is yaoi lol. i read a lot of random ones. i’ve been reading Jinx which always make me extremely angry LOL, but in a good way. i’ve been leaning towards disliking it because i feel like the author is about to do some dumb bullshit loool. it’s a shame because i like her other work, BJ Alex, a lot more.

for jinx, i find the dynamics and characters to be somewhat interesting, but the progression of the story has been strange to me. i think a lot of my grievances could be fixed with more focus on Jaekyung because there was a backstory chapter with him recently but it felt somewhat rushed and like a lot is still missing, especially over 70 chapters in the manwha at the pacing we’re going at. I am enjoying this part though I just still feel weird.

I hope the story will live but I don’t trust the writer but writers have surpassed my expectations many times

A: i'd be a faerie. my old usernames used to be fae focused. i'd want to be a really scary one from a dark court that tricks humans!!!

i like fae in yogurt200's works a lot (she calls them fairy/fairies).. i use fae because of the side of the internet/fiction i was on as a kid

i love you waterfairy

A: i rewatch alien 9 sometimes because i find it short and comforting. i've seen serial experiments lain twice, but i think it will become a yearly watch.

i rewatch ENA pretty often too. i always notice new things. and i like to read the comments sometimes.. i often show people who are becoming closer to me as part of the mala friendship rituals. i've shown my girlfriend and intend to show one of my next roommates... i've shown others too on hyperbeam.

usually i replay video games.. i've been playing OFF randomly for years. i used to play it every October. i replay Mad Father and Misao sometimes. Misao isn't the best game ever, but the old versions of the game make my brain go crazy.

oh and of course,i always return to Yume Nikki (and well some fangames too like Collective Unconscious due to continuous updates). Yume Nikki means a lot to me...

I hope ENA Dream BBQ will become a part of my return rotation too.

A: I have no strong feelings about them nowadays, but when I was younger, I was obsessed with them though because I grew up on the Twilight films. My family would go see new ones as they released in theaters, so stories I wrote as a child often had vampires.

Hmm, now I struggle a bit to have interest in them. A lot of popular supernatural creatures interest me very little.. I don't read paranormal or supernatural manga much. I prefer creatures / entities that appear in religious text that have really specific things about them because of specific cultural context surrounding them.

It's interesting how little they interest me now as I feel like a lot of my childhood interests I still have a bit.. I think it might partially be because vampires vary so much depending on what text you're reading but tend to have a few specific traits that are not super interesting to me.. (sun sensitivity, blood sucking, pale) etc. I do appreciate them in gothic literature and the aesthetics associated with them though. Definitely influenced my fashion choices without me realizing.

_{love you akasha}

A: I am not too picky about weather because something will usually make me uncomfortable anyways. I just like when it's warm- maybe high 60s F or low 70s.. Higher 70s if it's windy.

I like if it's sunny, but sometimes the sun burns.. But if it's cloudy, I tend to get cold...

Also, the feeling of certain weather varies a lot depending on your location.. But I guess.. Partly cloudy warm weather :'D

A: Naming just one feels a bit criminal, so I hope you don't mind if I provide a list.

1. suboptimalism. i enjoy reading suboptimalism's thoughts on things, and the amount of knowledge he has on various subjects makes me envious. though i always enjoy his opinions.. even if his Evangelion opinions are different from mine T_T. He recommended me books recently, and I've been getting through one slowly and am excited to start the others!!

2. crow-queen.com i think i started reading crow-queen's thoughts last year, but caught up this year. they are the most delightful user on the site for me, and i find reading their thoughts to be a breath fresh air.. there aren't a lot of websites that are so lolita focused on neocities. her website is like always having access to a sweet treat, and sometimes i learn new things about the fashion- especially since i'm not really caught up on modern trends. I also see this user in other lolita spaces, and I always think "ah I know you" which is fun.

3. cmsvgp.neocities.org This user's website is very pleasing on my eyes, and they write in a sincere way that moves me to tears. They also like Whisper of the Heart and a lot of other things I really enjoy. It's a site I hold dear to my heart.

4. saint-image.neocities.org is the last one i can think of. it took me a second to remember their username. the colors are very pleasant, and i really love their pictures and diary entries. This site's aesthetics have probably influenced me way more than i've realized hahaa!!!

It's about time to update my site again. I feel as though pink isn't really my color anymore, and i haven't been super active here. I've been very exhausted mentally and physically haha but looking at my favorites inspires me.. also if one of their buttons is missing from my button wall.. It's not for any particular reason. i'm just bad at maintaining that thing. i kind of want to delete it HAHA... I prefer linking to articles and specific pages nowadays.. but perhaps that is a bit lame...

A: My favorite EGL piece I don't own is hm Puff OP Sleeve Set by N+aH. Looking at it causes me to experience pain and feel as though I will vomit blood if it does not come into my possession. It is just a beautiful item, and it feels like my soul in a dress.


It's just been out of stock for as long as I can remember and also it's $333... I've been a lot on EGL pieces though this would be my most expensive purchase ever- right above Teddy Gobelin.

A: Hmm, my favorite song right now is probably Right Medicine by Gregory and the Hawk but also I recently started listening to this Japanese band from the 90s called Nurse I really enjoy. There's no album.. Just an entire discography uploaded.

I was talking to Io about being in Japan and talking to a Japanese student about this piece of sushi called a "hamburg." I was so confused by what this sushi was, and the student was confused because she viewed hamburgers as an American thing I guess. I think about that conversation a lot. For context, the sushi was like.. a ball of beef or something.

A cool fact about me is that I play guitar. Bow wow!

Thank you so much also! I think I'm doing a lot better today though not completely better yet :-)

A: My favorite movie is Paprika though Helter Skelter, Kamikaze Girls, and Whisper of the Heart are up there as well! I just really love Paprika.. It changed my world.

A: I have seen a few episodes of Columbo, but Matlock is my old detective show of choice. It's really my granny's fault though- she says Columbo speaks too slowly haha!

A: I can not sleep so more questions!! Hmm, most sea creatures I really like aren't fish, so I hope it's okay if I name a cephalopod! I like octopus. The way females treat their young is interesting to me. It actually makes me cry a bit. I also love their intelligence.. I wish they lived longer.

A: Hmm.. A favorite show. My brain immediately said Alien 9, but I actually think it's Revolutionary Girl Utena! I don't watch a lot of shows outside of anime unfortunately haha! Outside of anime, I like westerns and old detective shows like Gunsmoke and Monk!

A: yes! .flow is my favorite narrative wise, but my favorite fangame to explore is withers. i think it's the most beautiful fangame i've played and it truly does feel like dreams i've had.

here are some maps!

I miss it I should replay soon..

A: i used to when i was young, but nowadays i find the process of combing through sites like ao3 to be actively detrimental to my psyche. i tend to avoid most things that have to do with ~fandom~

A: my favorite flavor of ice cream i think is rainbow sherbert. i tend to get it pretty often. i like strawberry a lot too. i tend to get vanilla most of the time because i'm used to it though.

i recently learned about phasmids. i thought it was just a disco elysium thing lol. i learned that they can get pretty big too and the largest likely remain undiscovered. technically i've seen them too- they're stick bugs! i'd love to see giant ones..