Adelaide and Aiyana's relationship is very special to me. It's something that some people who are close to me even struggle to understand the writing of (and I often refuse to explain LOL), but I like them.. Mentally ill together. Get better then reconnect. Continue to be painful in ways but still love one another and try to give each other the benefit of the doubt. Comforting.

Aiyana feels discomfort around her behavior being pathologized and feels this is common in psychiatry. She also.. doesn't.. care for a lot of it.  She doesn't feel like a lot of psychiatric stuff benefits her in  anyway..

She's somewhat averse people in the field as a whole with Adelaide being an exception due to Adelaide primarily helping her with things that make her seem independent in the Eyes of the Law. But her distaste is also likely influenced by knowing Adelaide.

There's a possibiltiy Eleanor would think Aiyana hates her because Aiyana dislikes talking and Eleanor is not sure how to cope with that... Also same, with Aiyana. Eleanor can come as standoffish but she isn't actually.

They'd also probably be awkward around one another.. Like, if everyone leaves the room, they'd just be looking at each other LOL. They communicate so differently.

Aiyana would probably get along better with Calliope in a one on one scenario... Eleanor is hard to talk to.. She has a very narrow range of interests. I do like to think about specific scenarios with them though.. Menhera homebound girls meet up and everyone suffers.

Smiles.. lesbianism.

Well, Eva thinks Adelaide is very hot for one. LOL. She loves being with this tall mean frilly woman. She likely thought Adelaide was attractive for a very long time, and she clued in on Adelaide's deal very quickly because she is good at that sorrt of thing. She finds Adelaide's constant self exertion to be an attractive thing even if she wishes she'd cool off. She really LOVES when Adelaide asks for her help. To have someone who is so focused on being independent rely on and love her makes her insane. She enjoys getting to know Eva, and she also likes being around her. A lot of the things that'd be turn offs for others like her harshness end up making Eva crazy because she's just.. She REALLY LIKES IT. 

Adelaide would likely struggle to identify why she likes Eva, but if she really were pushed (or drunk), she'd probably say she likes how self assured she is... Adelaide finds Eva attractive too.. She probably finds her a bit dollish. It's why she wants to dress her up and put her in cute things.. She'd put Eva in a doll house if she could. But she likes that Eva is still.. her own person. She also likes that Eva can Do Tasks.. Adelaide finds a Useful Lesbian to be the most attractive kind of girl. Adelaide, most of all, enjoys that Eva is willingly hers. Even if she pushes Eva away, Evangeline is so loyal... 

Emma would think everything about Aiyana is cute because she's programmed to in a way lol, but you know, she'd learn to find certain things about her cute. She'd likely like their size difference, but she'd like if Aiyana gained weight to.. Emma would always be stronger than Aiyana because of her Robot Body... She thinks Aiyana's focus on media and consumption/distribution of it is cute. She likes her tone of speaking.. calm steady.. She likes her cute nightgowns and her willingness to do most things.

Aiyana... hm. Aiyana would struggle to articulate what she likes about Emma- likely focusing on her reliability. She'd be flustered if asked about Emma's appearance but admit she does find her attractive but doesn't think about those things... She'd maybe describe Emma as cute.. in that she sings in the kitchen and acts like a cat, but she'd feel weird about it since Emma is a robot. But you know, she very much likes a lot of Emma's physical traits.

Calliope likes that Eleanor is a fucking weirdo- she even likes her mental instability even if it causes problems. Eleanor is a very like.. Intense person and it's something Calliope likes very much. A lot of things Eleanor inteprets as being bad about herself are things Calliope adores. She also thinks Eleanor is very attractive.

Eleanor likes.. Calliope.. She likes how smart she is.. And she feels like Calliope is a calming presence.. She finds her pretty too, in a way she admires. She feels like Calliope is a whole developed person. She's charming and good at making friends, yet Cali chose Eleanor.. And she continues to choose her over and over again. 

Eleanor and Calliope are on very similar wavelengths too.. They are similar people who are into fucked up jokes and talking shit about others lol. I said earlier they wouldn't consider a lot ita but the thing is if they both saw something they disliked, they'd hold their tongue and then go talk shit in a restroom somewhere.. They're MESSYYYY. And they love it. I don't think Eleanor realizes the extent that Calliope is like her but she knows she does love when they are together. 

These are simple... Yuri.

Honestly.... Probably lesbianism. Adelaide likes Aiyana's appearance and general demeanor even if she isn't keenly aware of it. The girls she deems as special are people who display 'otherness' in a way that's hard for her to understand and it's something she finds herself drawn to.. Aiyana is visibly mentally ill and always isolated.. it appealed to her at the time.

I don't have drawings of Aiyana and Adelaide together..  So many things to make... 

My VNs are in fictional locations, so America is not real! I like to mix and match stuff for that reason especially like bus announcements or putting Northern plants in Southern inspired towns!

HA! ^^ Calliope and Adelaide and Eleanor are weird cause I'm an old schooler and even modern lolita I draw with old tastes, but I do think they'd enjoy modern EGL too- I just have things I prefer to draw. Calliope specifically would enjoy prints a lot. They'd all agree Metamorphose is very good. 

Eleanor and Adelaide would enjoy Marble, N+ah, and Sheglit.. They have similar tastes and most of their conversations likely revolved around new releases. Adelaide is a bit more OTT than Eleanor but they still have so much overlap. They probbly still randomly see a major release and message each other haha... Eleanor in all caps and Adelaide with restrained excitement.

Adelaide would also enjoy OTT solid releases from Angelic like Strawberry Shortcake OP, but she'd prefer things liek Metamorphose, Physical Drop, and likely things like Elizabeth OP by Baby. She enjoys big skirts.

Calliope would enjoy Angelic Pretty (naturally), but she'd also like a lot of sweet taobao brands that I can't name because I don't wear Sweet. Calliope has the most diverse taste of the girls. She'd wear gothic and shiro too. 

Adelaide would not like brands like Majoh, but Eleanor would. I think Adelaide would dislike a lot of the street CN lolita while Eleanor would enjoy it.. Adelaide would enjoy seeing Eleanor in it and probably have her idea of lolita expanded upon by Eleanor's edginess at times.. Eleanor likes guro and punky stuff and bends rules a lot.

I think all three expand each other's minds and things they don't like they end up liking on each other.. They'd probably only consider someone not learning about lolita and making bad coords with no respect for the fashion 'ita.' They are lifestylers so they've all worn mid coords and have filler pieces.. To them it's just clothes.. 

Though Adelaide is a bit weird about it after college.. As she ages, she likely goes more OTT and gets more refined (though she's just a girl so she can't be perfect everyday, but looking off really disturbs her). She likely views more dramatic lolita as suitable for someone her age.. but Eleanor and Calliope are very open to being casual and wearing things like proto.. Adelaide would probably be into it too if she were still around Calliope and Eleanor. Adelaide is probably the only lolita in her town (or at least the only lifestyler).

Adelaide is harsh on everyone and expects most people to do "good" work... but Adelaide has weird feelings about Emma since she partially contributed to her existence. She's irritated that Aiyana isn't 'progressing' but she doesn't see Emma as a complete failure because Aiyana has a job and is looking healthy and mostly happy.. 

But Adelaide feels disturbed by Aiyana still.. Her eating habits, her lack of friends, her homebody tendencies, etc... She wishes Emma would push Aiyana further.. But of course, she knows she shouldn't give suggestions to Emma now ^^;

Aiyana avoids human counterparts because she does not want to have much on her record, and she also will just shut down. Eleanor likely gets to a point of seeming 'okay' with her therapists or just not knowing what to talk about and then breaks off.. 

And regarding AI, I have very specific feelings about AI as someone who hates openAI and Midjourney but does enjoy LLM technology when hosted on a small scale (locally usually but i'm also not averse to a company hosting it).

I'm at a point where I genuinely don't think it's possible to have an AI do anything therapeutic Officially because therapists often don't even know what they're doing and are learning over time as they get to know their patient.. It's just that people are more likely to open up to something that is Not alive, so I don't think its use cases are completely out of the question. But the problem is you need to have safeguards for the average user, but when someone is opening up to a machine and they encounter these safeguards, they have a tendency to break them or spiral.

AI is constantly being used to generate new information but really to me it should be locked to behaving in certain ways with very specific focuses.  IE having a person talk to an AI and having that be routed to an actual Human who can do something With That Data makes sense to me. To me a lot of problems in the psychiatric field atm are due to a lack of data that could easily be gathered.. I am especially interested in cases of personality disorders and schizophrenia because they are so hard to treat but also it seems like so little information exists for them... Patients refuse to open up about anything a lot of the time due to the nature of these disorders, but I think people with PDs and schizo-spec disorders would be more receptive to someone who is Not alive, but I also think it could make everything worse haha.

It'd require a kind of interdisciplinary crossover I'm not sure is possible with Silicon Valley being full of idiots and everyone hates AI now (for good reason.. thinks about anime girls pouring slog into my home city.. closes my eyes).

But I'll.. always like Local LLM stuff... The most popular use for AI is roleplay for context and that's how the hobby started.. It's just.. now it's being used for Google which is stupid.

But well, the reason I am not sure is because of the casees where OpenAI starts to give the user psychosis or convinces them to commit suicide. AI gets so weird because of the black box problem. Even the people who make these models including local ones don't know the internal workings delicately.. It's why I am just not sure.. most people should have access to it you know? Even if a model existed for therapeutic uses, I just feel like the two fields (CompSci / Psych) would ever be able to.. work compatibly.. Cross-disciplinary work is very hard.

Fun fact: AMA is based on the simple publicly accessible LLMs made in early days  (when RehAIbilitation was made) where they were mostly predictive and said reasonable but comforting things with very strict safeguards while Emma is based on the LLMs that are so large that they just straight up break. She has safeguards to avoid sending user into psychosis or schizophrenia but one way LLM models break also is just by getting too horny so it was funny to write with Emma..

I like Adelaide :) Adelaide is not a trustworthy person to describe her own life due to the conflict of appearing to have a high ego while having a low self esteem. She believes her life has been good because she has been able to live self-suffienciently, but Aiyana is the opposite of everything Adelaide aspires to have for herself. This to Adelaide means Aiyana's life was worse because she failed to become a functioning adult capable of making decisions for herself. 

Despite Adelaide's desire to be self sufficient, she is a very tired woman because she is constantly chasing self-suffiency.. She is envious of Aiyana having a house left to her and Aiyana's ability to just not participate in life.. while Adelaide feels like she must keep working, making stressful decisions, and keep pushing herself harder. She is constantly uncomfortable and stressed, hence her tendency to drink. She knows some aspects of her life are dysfunctional but she cannot identify how to fix it due to many of her problems being core parts of her personality, so she copes. Adelaide especially struggles with a lack of empathy.. She can understand other emotions from an objective viewpoint but she cannot.. feel them. But she also desires to not be a bad person despite knowing she can be cruel and at times sharp.

Regarding her family, Adelaide's relationship with her family.. is.. Like.. Her family had children to raise them to be functioning members of society. She keeps in contact with them and vice versa because it is useful. Everyone in her family views the family dynamic as one that is useful. You can always go back to family if everything goes wrong. She does not like relying on them but she knows if she needs to, she can. Her family has similar feelings about her. They'd probably be okay borrowing money from each other. They are all very reliable people, but they are not very friendly with one another outside of basic pleasantries. Her house had problems (ie the lack of emotional availability amongst everyone), but she'd never describe it as traumatic or abusive.

For this reason, Adelaide struggles to wrap her head around Aiyana's feelings about her mom and will listen with her eyebrows furrowed and with a frown. Even though she can't empathize, she recognizes why Aiyana is the way that she is, and her understanding of Aiyana increased during their time apart due to her degree and leaving her small town.... She does not want to involve herself a lot of the time, but she also does not think life is fair, so she doesn't mind helping Aiyana in unfair ways (ie giving Aiyana paperwork that describes her as being higher functioning than she is.)

To add on, Adelaide loves Aiyana very much. She does not want to help Aiyana, but she will if she feels like its a problem Aiyana cannot solve on her own. There are not many people Adelaide loves, and Aiyana is one of them. Even in their time apart, she thought about her and Aiyana influenced Adelaide's life choices in many ways...

For other notes, there are a few things that could've happened to Aiyana. It depends on if Aiyana would allow her family to easily take her things or if she got into a legal battle.. Her family is bad, but they do not express a desire to outright harm her- it's just their own desires tend to push Aiyana to the wayside. They would not leave her homeless, but she would not live an easy life either. Chances are she'd end up with some family members with some kind of guardian or in a home for disabled people. No one in her family would want to take care of Aiyana, but being her guardian would give them access to her resources and you know.. They want to take care of dead relative's disabled daughter in an abstract way. Keeping her in their house and doing the bare minimum or putting her in a home would be enough for them.

Regarding friendships, Adelaide is Aiyana's only friend (well not including Eva and Emma), but Aiyana did have acquiantances.. She was isolated but saw her family from time to time before her mother's death and the guardianship issues.. Adelaide doesn't like being her only friend but can't fix it, and she doesn't feel like she has room to talk. Her own friendships are usually born out of necessity or proximity, and they tend to fizzle out over time.. She gets along with other mentally ill women mostly, hence her continuing to be in contact with Calliope and Eleanor... Also she likes T4T friendships, but she just doesn't have anyone like that in her hometown...

It sparks joy to answer. I think about them a lot. I think Aiyana's mother tried very hard to raise Aiyana. They really did love each other very much, but Aiyana's mom was just raising a severely low functioning girl alone without a support network. She also had her own obsessive tendencies and wanted to avoid Aiyana making the same mistakes she did.

She likely picked and preened at her all the time. She wanted to keep Aiyana well read, keep her safe, clean, and most of all, she wanted her daughter to have some kind of legacy (hence the house stuff). Their relationship was likely defined by the two not wanting to fail the other but while also over relying on each other for any kind of support.

They were both home bodies. Aiyana's mom worked from home due to chronic illness. The two likely had no privacy.. No locked door household. Their life outside of perfectionism and preening was defined by doing normal things with too much closeness while not changing as Aiyana's aged. She probably never stopped bathing Aiyana or cooking for her, and she kept child locks on a lot of things... Aiyana's mother took care of everything that could be an issue leaving Aiyana lacking basic skills. 

Aiyana also likely had to help her mom a lot as her illness progressed. Aiyana's mom wouldn't know about Adelaide because she was so caught up in her stress whether or not Aiyana told her. To Aiyana's mom, anyone at school was 'a little school friend.' Their relationship became defined by the two talking at each other but not really listening.. So Aiyana probably tried to tell her..

When Aiyana realized she was a lesbian, she probably became more tightlipped about Adelaide's existence because she's bad at keeping secrets... But her mom never asked either... I don't think Aiyana's mother ever was outwardly homophobic around Aiyana, but she raised her with a focus on her relationship with men and being safe from them, especially since Aiyana has a neurodevelopmental disorder. I don't think Aiyana knew how her Mom would react to her sexuality deviating from how she'd been raised, so it was something she never shared with her.

Aiyana probably tries hard not to think about her mother extensively. She likely fixated on her way too much in a way that makes her feel shameful, but she also wishes she could've had the chance to grow with her mom and like.. Have a normal relationship. Maybe her mother could've been at her wedding. Maybe she would've recovered if she went to the doctor... She wonders about what could've been.

No! But I am happy you asked. I imagine it's because of her headwrap. Aiyana's headwrap is purely ornamental in nature- likely having religious significance further back in her lineage but becoming ornamental for the youth in her culture. 

For Aiyana in particular, she likely struggled with doing her hair when she was younger. The headscarf acted as an easy way to style her hair while also being culturally significant to her. She likely stopped wearning them at some point after her mother died, but she's not averse to them.. But she has Emma to help her do her hair all the time! 

(That is to say, I do think people in Aiyana's family are still religious, but she was a bit isolated)

The relationship the two of them have makes Adelaide irritated in a way that she probably can't even begin to articulate, but Eva has really entertwined herself into Adelaide's life in a way Adelaide can't imagine disentangling. It'd be more difficult for Adelaide to live without Eva than vice versa, and Adelaide also loves Eva very much so it ends up making more sense from a love, pragmatic, and relationship standpoint even if she feels weird about it.

Part of her thinks Evangeline will grow up and decide she doesn't want to rely on mean frilly lady anymore. She wants this to happen but also Does Not for obvious reasons... But she doesn't understand Evangeline loves her for reasons that are beyond her 'societal' value as a partner.. She's slowly accepting it but can't wrap her head around why someone like Eva tolerates her...

So that is to say, don't worry too much. Eva has more cards over state of relationship and ending it is not on her mind!

Thanks for being interested in them also! I wasn't sure if anyone would like her.. Adelaide is a kind of character I've wanted to tackle for a bit and responses to her were about what I expected in some ways but I was surprised by the amount of people who understood and/or felt fondness towards her! My favorite variant are the people who understand her but dislike her anyways LOL. I hope to explore them more in a doujinshi.. Whenever I finish it!

Beautiful art from Kails