happy new year
Posted on: 2026-01-17 17:24:00

hello! i haven't updated in a while. the diary now falls back to the month with the last update. i was struggling with it before but now it is good and true.. i'll upload the github version when I am less tired.


i'm at my granny's house watching lifetime movies. trying to edit this entry making me anxious. i have been having this extended argment with my family. it is my fault. i can solve it by doing something relatively simple, but i'm just stupid and dealing with executive dysfunction and just kind of want to do it in peace and quiet.


i think part of the solution is getting a full time job. now that the new year has begun and my school year is entirely online, it is the ideal time to look.


on the bright side, i've been eating better! i ask for second servings again! it's been a long time since  i did this outside of buffet settings (which usually i don't eat prior to going to them because i want to eat a variety of things), i sort of hate it and have no motivation or desire, but it has returned to me! i just need to actually buy groceries when i'm home haha.. it's just hard to eat in a healthy way.


outside of that, i was playing dress up games for a while...  i wanted to have a little doll on the right. i've been in the mood. i started playing IT Girl on Roblox which i'll also share.. guts showed it to me cause i was complaining a lot about dress to impress sucking really bad.


my sisters are begging me to play a roblox game, so i actually will have to stop writing shortly. i just wanted to add a few updates here. i've been stressed and looking for a new jobs. i've set up a few interviews. ones at a call center, another is a housekeeping job, and a vet has reached out to me but it's a bit far for what i'd like. it feels like everyone wants something from me but i can never give enouhg.


i've unbraided my hair and sent off 25 packages. there are many more, but i have to go about it strategically. the post office staff tend to get mad when i send off things or give them a hard time. the bus from my apartment actually goes very close to the UPS office (which is used for the international packages).


i can drop off the USPS packages at college which i was avoiding but i relized even if they are rude at times, i pay tuition and that includes using the post office. i've had so many issues with my school that i don't care about troubling anyone anymore. i've got to get the fuck out of there then work and get my own shitty apartment somewhere. i'm gonna try to go to drivers school again. this place i found offers individual lessons but it's super expensive and i know even if i ask my parents, i'll end up spending hndreds of dollars again with some ephemereal promise of being paid back.



IT Girl is cute.. Heads are so large but it's kind of charming..
I still prefer it over many other dress up games a nd the layering is really good