boredom fueled lethargy, will try harder!
Posted on: 2025-07-18 17:08:00
Tags: random

i'm out of bed, but was in bed until 4:20. rather embarrassing and shameful really. i actually woke up at 8AM but was so overwhelmed by the thought of washing my hair, id ecided to go back to  bed. then ended up having constant nightmares.i'd wake up over and over in each dream, but little things would make me realize i'm not awake. like being too short toreach the door handle. i wastoo scared to stay asleep at some point because i kept dreaming about a man trying to shoot me and probably some other things i don't recall. 


this is a sign that i shouldn't be sleeping all day and i should really listen to it. it's hard to go outside because of the heat, but i shouldn't spend hours in bed as a remedy. it's just..i'm even tired of my computer..? isn't that wierd?


i think this boredom is very bad, so tomorrow i think i'll pick back up actively studying Japanese though i'm not sure where to start. citrus recommended i go to the site lesssons and doing some kanji study which i will do, but i think i need something more.. methinks i'll practice writing by hand again. but i'm rather lazy and hate doing this. it's not particularly useful to me either outside of writing the radicals in Jisho for looking up unknown kanji, but even when I was actively writing Kanji and motivated, i was rather bad at it.


i don't know. i just know i need to beat this boredom fueled lethargy before it becomes something much wose. when i woke up at 8AM, i knew i could get up but just didn't have the desire to. i can draw in the evenings, i can do homework in the evenings, and i'm tired of school and my room always feels too messy but i hate going into study rooms. cleaning my room never takes long.. yes.


i will beat this for sure. now i'm going to go wash my hair and wash some movies while i blow dry it. i need to make use of time before i have a job that makes me wake up at 6AM and sit in an office most of the day. yes.


a girl named tuna recommended an anime for me to watch. i'll watch it as my hair dries.. but to be honest i hate blow drying my hair.. i'd must rather twist it.. but everyone places emphasis on blow drying it so maybe i should make it part of my routine.. but my hair acts the same whether i twist it or blow dry it anyways.


so i'll just twist it bc that's what i like to do and why do something else when i know my hair acts the same way anyways. i just hate when people don't think i know how my hair acts. i've had other people blow dry it too.. but it's the same every time.. twisting vs not blow drying. 


i going to buy some mousse today too. but i think i need to give up on twist outs maybe in this humidity, but i'll try a bit more. i don't know lol. research time.


also goddessofblood (Sienan) gave me an easy stir fry mix. i usually just use teriyaki because i'm lazy but this was a foodhack and god knows i love foodhacks (it's how i used to make omurice.. wow i should make omurice). i hope to add a search function to this blog soon so i'll be able to find this easily.


"For sauce I mix Soy Sauce with 'Yum Yum Sauce'.  Somewhere around a 1:3 ratio? Its pretty forgiving, though too much soy sauce will drown everything.  Anyways, then add garlic, a pinch or two of ginger, and curry powder. I don't, have specific measurements. As long as you use less than like,

2 tablespoons (alot) of garlic or curry powder it should come out tasty :)  And super easy to make.  You can add more/different spices too. Sometimes I'll add some chili oil :) For an extra simple meal, I'll pour the ingredients on veggies in a bowl, mix, and throw in an pre-heated frying pan.

Its very much a 'food hack' & i'm sure tastes different from a normal sauce but.  Its so easy and tastee :)"


writitng this has motivated me! everyone has been so nice and i have so many activities everyone has given me. stir frye, anime, HAM radio, and lots of reading (though i haven't been in a big reading mood jaja). i have eleanor oliphant from antique store i can eeven read while in bed. i should set it on top of my CRT!


soon yaye market will happen and i'll be busy with table setup 24th! 25th i have bday bakery day! 26th i go out for high tea with friends! the bed was sucking out my energy but i can do it!