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ophazines thoughts + future plans and things
Posted on: 2025-12-07 14:16:00
i have much to do, too much to do, to a point where i am simply staring at my tasks and going "this is i talked about it on my zine accounts. my plan to ship zines before christmas. the contributor bach will have to go out later due to my own holiday struggles and housing problems, but the contributors have always been extremely understanding which i am always appreciative of. i've always been paranoid of it, but i realized everyone who ever really grilled me about things was not a contributor or an actual supporter of ophazines- it helps me approach things a bit more realistically and pragmatic rather than constantly punishing myseslf for being slower than i'd like. communication is key and many xzines i've bought from and been apart of have been much less communicative! i've been considering making a someone documentarian zine with a bit of comedic twist over ophazine's process wiht some doodles from ichorus (who often draws the zine promo stuff). I'd do it myslef but I'm not good at comedic doodles due to doll sensibilities and you know.. Ichorus has always done it lol. the reason i want to do this is because i think a lot of business stuff relies on transparency and maintaining professionalism which i got caught up in but as disabled person who is silly and likes to have fun, i think professionalism is important but i don't want to pull out my fun. i don't want to pretend i don't make mistakes or learn thigns throughout the process. that mindset is why i've been so anxioused and so panicked, but it was pushed onto me by people hwo aren't within my circle. i don't mind if people dislike mistakes i make, but also, i think it's important to recognize that i am just a guy and my friends are just guys and we've been at this for years. i think it'd give me closure on this entire process and let me laugh at my stress. i actually do love pre-orders and i enjoy printing zines. stickers ar efunt oo thought he other merch is a bit much. i actually find myself with another feeling lately- to get sillier. the physical zine process is not horribly expensive though the other merch process can be and is. It was around where I expected, everything in the end.
Anyways, I get embarrassed easily so getitng sentimental always leaves me feeling a bit cringe and embarrassed, but you know, the job will be one then Ic an move on to msall zines again. Probably some denpa weirdness or something, somehorror girl zine, jfashion shit, diversity of content. Be free.  |
not going according to plan, but i must simply plan around it.
But, eh. I think I got so stressed out because of sentimentality and the desire to move quickly and things I was told a while ago, but now I am sort of.. ermm.. Silly. I think some haste is necessary but care is required. I cannot rush other people also ahah and I also face consequences when rushing myself. Many msitakes were a result of my desire for haste, in fear I'd be viewed as lazy, despite proving myself over and over and over again to my peers. Silly silly.
author: malaika
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