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web shenigans
Posted on: 2025-10-13 23:13:00
Hi!! Today I joined a webchain called Milkchain. It's pretty cool, an evolution of webrings. I want to toy with it someday I think. I like ever growing things with islands.
I'd like to toy with it eventually and see if having it webbed like this is the only way to display information. I have no idea lol . It's actually up on Github- free to look at, so I could just look at it.. With my eyes. I am busy lately though so notm uch time to learn new things. Tomorrow though I am hoping to go pick up Ulbrelvy, but I need you to know that medication is $1,000 so I may come back empty handed. I set up a card to try to get it for less which I think will work with my mom's insurance For Once. Now I must go there.. But spending money on Uber always sucks. What has Mala been up too? Migraine hell. I have one right now, slowly increasing in intensity. Some people manage to get it for $0. This is what I am hoping for since I don't really have money for medication right now. I've been lucky lately. I'm getting free autism assessment soon (would you believe that just fell into my lap?). Maybe the luck will keep up and I can finally be free from the illness curse? But it's scary.. I have migraines a lot.. Afraid of rebound headaches with medication always.
ignore the hand in the corner lmao it's a youtube video I've been working on my dress up game finally. Was thinking I may not do it then sstarted and had a bunch of fun. Pretty chill. I was burned out from yuritober and I felt bad not finishing up then I realized good girls take breaks (or else they decay and end up becoming burned out bad girls). This woiuld not be ideal because burning out will take away my coping mechanisms. Making these little projects in Godot is fun, especially with basicbean being so helpful. I have random things on mind now. I think I want the eyes and mouths to be switchable. Right now they're drag and drop but this disturbs me. May have one default face, but not sure. I think I'll add music and a custom splash screen too haha. Godot has a built in custom splash but it's like unitty's. Can easily get rid of. I sometimes like to see it cause it's like "wow godot i can't believe this was made in godot" lol but you know for my own tastes, prefer pastel leaning things. Mala has her own logo that I can just make pink. Umm, it's actually not super visible on this website.. It's my big logo.. The angel with wings..
chartreuse made this for me It pleases me and captures all I'd like. Holy angel noises then cute bunny music. Probably have some CC0 stuff in my files. Oh also I am preparing to start my hop to Steam since itchio is run by.. people who don't know how to do anything I guess.
My goal with RehAI is to fix the old art, fix any writing I find to egregious leaving most of the old stuff in tact, add a sidestory, and some other goodies you unlock. There will be a switcher for new and old art too. The Ryuikishi way. No release date in mind because Steam app is $100 and I'm takin gremake pretty slow. I'm hoping to get some seasonal job over winter that gives me money for the upcoming spring year+ things like this. Anyways, yap yap. This is fun. Dollmaker jam going well too. After it's over, my goal is to make a dollmaker webring for dollmakeers hosted on sites. I'll probably get rid of the widget though. Maybe it'll just be a listing instead? A listing with an optional button. That actually makes more sense huh?
i've drawn this OC for artfight..,. seeing dollmaker for them made me very happy. it also made me wanna get more brown and red clothes This is from Aoife Dressup by slimemold. I know some other friends are joining and friends who aren' t in the jam have also expressed interest in making dollmakers. This sparks much joy for obvious reasons so I am greatly pleased by this. Many are neocities friends.. So so nice. Some friend swho've joined are gonna self host their games too rather than just be on itchio.. yes.. yes.. my grand plan.. Fizzsea also entered and obviously I love everything by him hence him being one of the jduges. Their dollmaker sparked much joy. I made cute girl then realized I could make several of my ocs.
ocs.. i've never been able to make sepia in anything. i hadn't thought about mia in a while but this was perfect for her. and angel .. is just perfect whenever citrus draws her. I think I'll probably keep making dollmakers for a long time. It's something I always wanted to do as a kid and hosting this sort of feels like an extension of childish wishes? I always never know how to feel about anyhting, but Dollmaker Jam I think makes me happy for sure.. My goal is 15 entries total.. So I hope we reach it. We're at 8 and not even halfway through October! There's 79 people who've joined the jam too. this is actually why my goal is 15. Previously it was lower! It's hard to get people to finish things for dollmaker jams and also getting them to learn about them is hard.. I'm not really popular or anything outside of a few niche circles I guess (and even then I'm not favored in those circles like some of my peers, my name just pops up often). Um, I guess it's nice to host things wiht friends and see them come to fruition.. Pleasant feeling. Something new. Trying new rthings is good! New things are always so scary, but it must be done to make progress with emotions! Godot, dollmakers, new relationships with old friends, going new places, communicating with girlfriend.. All good. My brain feels like it's splitting in half a lot of the time but these little things help so much.. Recentering of life.  |
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web development vs neurotocism
Posted on: 2023-10-20 00:00:00
So. I went a bit insane and purged a lot of pages from the website. I finally purged a lot of the CSS in the stylesheet and moved it onto individual pages (we will see if i come to regret this), and for a few hours, this blog had been deleted as i felt it wasn't the best representation of myself. it's back now because this is a major coping mechanism for me, and it's deletion would result in further neurotocism.
It's 2:48AM and I have work in the morning, but I am feeling so on edge from deleting so much stuff. Okay, deleted is a strong word. A lot of it is still on my laptop in a folder marked as "retired." Maybe I'll upload it to the website tomorrow. Maybe I'll accidentally delete the folder and those pages will only exist on the wayback machine. Who knows? I just kept feeling like my website was too big and it was bogged down by a lot of pages I didn't really care about anymore. No Manifesto is gone. Although it meant something to some people, it didn't really interest me anymore. The followup, Manifesto, is also gone because I have no desire to have an internet manifesto. machine girl page is gone. second life page is gone For now. I just really disliked the design of the page, and it was so image heavy that it loaded very slowly. It'll come back in some form probably if I ever feel like coding it again. I'm considering moving this diary to PHP but everytime I look into it, I'm like "that's way too much fucking work." Idk. Who cares about any of that? To be honest, I'm just happy the website is slimmer now. I feel like it's a better reflection of my current likes and ideals and interests. I will grieve the kitchen page. I was even preparing to make onigiri to update it, the rice is in the fridge. But it's just way too much energy and thinking about it would blast me with 100 brain damage. I think I just want to write essays about media every two years and update my diary and reading pages. And like talk about my projects. The collections page is gone simply because my collection feels too big to photograph ahah. The lolita page... It's still here. i'm unhappy with it but it's here. I'm unhappy with everything on my site lately. I'm worried the iframes are clunky, the old home page was way cuter and more versatile, there's too many broken links, no one likes webp maybe I shouldn't have converted all the images. None of it really matters because it's a simple hobby but I'll obsess over it like it does. I just feel like such a disappointment. Boring disappointing webpages boring words boring boring boring boring.  |
